I BEEN DOING ME ON A DAILY

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Shaping up another beautiful week. Currently at university sitting in my law lecture listening to this guy reading all of his information from his papers. First thought: „Wtf is he doing?“ Second thought: „Wtf am I doing here?“ This makes me stop and ponder how precious time is. So while he is talking or should I say reading (?), I’m using this time doing something more productive like writing this blog post :)

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Please don’t waste my time, if you do, don’t expect me to hang out with you! It might seem a little bit discriminating, but I’ve simply come to a point where I don’t want to spend my time on things or people which are not bringing me any further in life.

Time is a totally non-renewable source. Once time passes, it’s gone forever. You can’t get it back. Whether you are rich or poor, old or young, the clock is ticking the same for everyone.I wasted my time with people who didn’t have any real value to me doing pointless things that didn’t have any positive effects on my future. Once you cut to the chase and think of what’s really important, you realize the immense amount of time and energy you’ve lost wasting it on something completely irrelevant. However, I don’t regret it. I’m still young, still learning, still in the process. And sometimes the wrong direction leads to the right place.

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The past weeks had been spent in mindful debate over going in a new direction. Leaving toxic, useless things and relationships behind and focus on the good. Focus on what I really want. Focus on what my HEART really wants. When you come to a crux in life, it may be difficult to stay positive and confident, but the decision you will make will be the best one. All that matters is when you go after something, go with ALL of your heart. Either you’re IN our OUT, there’s no such thing as in-between.

No one can predict the future, but you can wield the direction with your choices. Time flies, so be the pilot.

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NOT THE SAME AS I WAS WITH YOU

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Back where we started and doing just fine. Change is in the water and the water feels just right. We can’t fear change, we must embrace it.. sometimes you have to walk on water. Watching the night sky, dotted with asterism, fade into darker majestic hues of blue, signalizing the end of another day. Embracing the silence, the celestial space is where my mind is allowed to wander. Mood? Calm. I feel so weightless as if at any moment, the wind is going to sweep off my feet and I’ll fly away. Anywhere, everywhere.

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Out there it’s deceivingly cold, with only a faint chill creeping through the window sill. Song on repeat. It’s been 10 months, 13 hours and 21 minutes since we last spoke. It feels a bit longer. 308 days have gone by. 2 seasons have come and gone. In 2 more months, it’ll be one year since you hid. You used to tell me there was a reason for all the reasons. A reason for the trees and the ocean. A reason why the sun got shy on some days and the clouds would take over. A reason for the moon, the stars and all the celestial beings hiding behind powder puff giants.

The first time I ever attended a funeral, you pulled me in close and told me she wasn’t gone; you said it was like the sun, the moon and the stars. She wasn’t gone, she was just hiding. You always found a way to explain things to me in a way which made sense, never losing any sense of wonder and magic to your reasons. It’s taken me a while to remember and for that I’m truly sorry. But I know one day, hide and seek will come to and end; when it does, I hope you’ll smile and say…

„I told you so.“

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DO IT THE HEART WAY

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First of all, sorry for not posting the last weeks, but I had so much going on! Exams, exams, exams and working on weekends. But now that everything went well, I have finally found some time to shoot this outfit for you!

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I’m too stubborn to let anything stop me. When I set my mind into doing something, I do it.

In general, most people are very positive and supportive about what I do. But still there are a few naysayers I’ve came across along the way. The last months a lot has been going on in my life and though I am kind of a relaxed person, I have to admit that I was pretty stressed out. I didn’t know how I could manage all of this without leaving anything behind – uni, relationships, family, friends, work, my blog… There were even some people who I was very close with, who couldn’t or didn’t want to support me in that whole blog thing, because they somehow felt intimidated by it, I don’t know. This person literally made me think for a second „what am I doing, maybe I should stop this and then everything will  be fine“.

But, only for a second.

How could I ever allow that someone makes me think, that I should stop doing what I love, just because this person doesn’t have passion for anything in life. Really sad I know, but true. It hurts when even strangers are more supportive than your closest ones – when actually they should be the ones who support you and be happy for you, instead of being jealous or whatever. Because, is there anything better than hearing people you love talk about something they’re really passionate about? The way their eyes light up when they talk about the things they love. When I started thinking about this, I realized that it’s better to cut those people off, who don’t see the value in you and don’t see the effort you’re putting into the things you love, or aren’t interested in it at all, just because they’re dissatisfied with their own life.  I’m not going to let other people’s negativity and insecurity stop me from doing what I want to do in life. I crave fiery passion. I don’t need a person as a filler. I need a person who is the firecracker, that makes me feel alive. And like Bukowski once said, I do not have time for things that have no soul.

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This might sound ridiculous now, but I had a really mind-changing conversation in the club with a special friend, I haven’t seen seen in months.  We talked for hours, I think, I even forgot that we’re actually in a club – I was just completely zoning out the people and the music around us. After seeing that one of the most important people in my life didn’t want to support what I’m doing , I completely forgot that there ARE actually people out there who appreciate what I do and know why I’m doing it. This conversation really opened my eyes.

In the days since, lots of things have started slotting into place and I see something so clearly now: I was a perfectionist, but more importantly, I’m someone who has unwittingly trained herself not to outshine. I have really been a People Pleaser and it doesn’t matter how much you love a person, but if this person makes you feel you did something bad, just because you go after what you want in life, LEAVE. Don’t use your time here to cater to other people’s egos by playing it small. Yes, it hurt, but I stood my ground because it was my character and my self-worth means more to me. It hurt, what was said, but not everyone you lose is a loss, believe it or not! The problem is, people aren’t liking the „no“, but that’s okay because I have a right to my feelings and a choice. No one can make me do something I don’t want to do. I am my best friend and if someone is not willing to let me have a voice, then I’d rather hang with myself than hang with drama.

Doing what you love in life is the most important thing. A person without passion for something is a lost soul, without any sense of purpose or direction. I won’t ever let people like that make me stop, because it’s the things I love that keep me going. My passion is what saves me from the world. I will  burn for the things I love.

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